Dementia

I haven't been on in a while. I suppose three days is a while in my book, because I try to update frequently. You can say I have good reasons.

My brother turned twelve yesterday. I wanted to cry all day. He was never supposed to grow up and get taller than my grandparents. He was supposed to be the Peter Pan of Forever. Yet, he sat in a cold chair in an overflow in a brand new Mr. Mac suit with many man hands on his head yesterday.

My mom had told me a couple of California Trips before that I would have a grandpa who wouldn't be the same as I remember him. The last couple of visits we had with him and my grandma I never would have known. That changed. It changed too soon. If it never happened, it would be too soon. He had been diagnosed with dementia. A little (insert word here that is more than just annoying and somewhat stupid) boy decided to test that. The boy ate his designated slice of cake then, threw his white plastic fork at my grandfather. Rage overthrew his usual positive demeanor. He threw the fork back.
"I'm sorry I didn't hit you."

I wasn't there when this happened. But people usually are sad about losing family members to death and such. There are much worse things. Dementia is only one. It is threatening and scary. It seemed to make my world fall apart for a moment.

So, I didn't do anything today except clean my room and chill with my family. We played volley ball at the stake center. My room is clean and disinfected now.

Castle is on tonight at nine. It's a two part episode.

I need to find a song for the high school choir auditions on the first. I am signed up for that day. I really want to get into chamber because the class is small, so it'll feel like family, and because they go to Shakespeare Comp. with The Shelley.

I need to find a monologue for Shakespeare Comp. I want to find a really good one. A dramatic one would be nice. The humorous ones or the 'lovey-dovey' ones don't seem to broadcast my talent as well as it does for others. I don't find myself a comedic person. So, I guess I will be spending much time around tragedies this summer. Macbeth, here I come.