This is off topic and it's something I need to handle.
I'm losing myself. I feel lost. No direction whatsoever. I know where I am going, but I just feel so closed in that there is no room to go where I need.
I'm losing my friends. I make mistakes. Apparently that is not normal. Or so my brain thinks.
I have opinions. My opinions are messing up everything. I could lie. Or be honest.
I am a loud person, but is going to stop for a while, you see I have decided that I am going into Shadow.
Shadow is not an evil, dark place. I'm just going to be much quiter. I am going to be less opinionated. I am going to get more people to like me that way, because these days, I seem to have more enemies than friends. Don't quote Eminem on me. I know his saying.
I don't know what to do, so that is what I have decided on. No, that does not mean I will be wearing black. I'm just going to sit with my old lunch group. I'm not going to say much. Just enough to get me by. And then go home and eat chocolate.
Because chocolate is supposed to make everything better and it hasn't failed me yet.
chocolate has never failed me either!
ReplyDeletebut don't go changing just cause you think that's what others want. make sure that if/when you change it's because it's what you think it right. don't change for anyone's happiness but yourself.
You're amazing- just keep being you! Don't pay attention to those teenage hormones that seem to thrive so abundantly in society. We love you, Talia!
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