At the beginning of the year, like, the REAL beginning of twenty thirteen, I found myself in what I thought was "head over heels" for some guy. It took about a month and a heart to realize who he really was and how he really saw me. I am smarter because of it.
The day I realized how he saw me was the day a beautiful girl took her life. Two more souls followed suit later on in the year.
I said my first real cuss to my best friend. I was angry and felt cheated, but that doesn't mean she deserved what I said to her.New York was where I learned a lot about who I was and how I make choices--how I want to make choices. Being there, I wanted to make good choices and feel accountable. Being in Utah, I don't feel that a whole lot because there's a crowd to follow.
A child's life changed my own. A sweet kid that got bullied had the strongest heart I had ever known. I thought I changed his life, but it was my own. That same week I held I dying hummingbird in my hand. Life is so much more precious that we really recognize. Seconds later I watched a bat give birth in front of a bunch of fifth graders. I hope I get more privacy than that poor mom did.
Somehow I was chosen to represent the Drama Club in the homecoming pageant. Those girls that I got to become friends with are the most amazing girls. I wish it didn't take until senior year to know them. Stranger yet, those girls voted me for a crown. It's funny. . . after talking to several people, they said they were glad to see the other side win. I didn't know we had sides.
Aside from those girls, I became friends with an outrageous group of people. I have no words. They simply are. . . fabulous.
I accomplished the Auditorium Challenge. Please, feel honored to know me. I survived. I am a survivor.
I applied and got accepted into college. I am planning on attending USU in Logan until other circumstances arrive. I don't know how I will pay for it without being in an outrageous amount of debt, but I will figure it out.
Just yesterday I recorded a song in my friend, Sam's, recording studio. Please, applaud me. I don't know how that happened.
In the end, 2013 made me grow up. I make adult choices sometimes. Stupid decisions others. Which is probably why there is purple duct tape holding the front bumper to the Vader Wagon. I've really become a different person. How blessed I for that.
In 2014, I will graduate high school. I will have a choir tour romance and I will have my first real kiss. I will begin college and I will study and make friends and have fun and really become who I need to be. That is my plan. Just wait, in a year from now, you'll know how I am doing.
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