Like a Princess

on the upside, we had a ton of fun

Sometimes you need something taken away from you so you can realize just how valuable it is. I know I'm boring many, many people with my concussion talk but it's consumed my life. It determines every decision, it plays a factor in all I do. I will not simply be "Talia" for a while.

I miss being able to think. I philosophized about the world on a daily basis. I came up with conspiracy theories to nearly everything. All that I learned in math and science would be put to the test in my spare time with nothing to show on paper.

Now everything is clouded. I can think in simple strands, if I'm lucky. On good days, I can very nearly hide the fact that there is something wrong. I appear almost normal. On bad days, I feel dizzy and nauseous. Everything is disconnected. Voices don't match with lips. Entire phrases go missing. I know what I want to say, but it can't come out.

and looked really cute

But I am blessed. I am blessed that I am still on the mend. I am blessed that my sister allowed me to borrow her automatic car on Saturday for Morp as opposed to my stick shift (I hit my head at the dance. My poor date had to drive me home as I started going loopy). I am blessed that my date could pick me up and carry me when I passed out in his arms in the middle of a slow dance. I am blessed that the CT proved clear. I am blessed to know that it gets better.